million miles to go...

2009-06-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

Pabila kau tiada di sisiku hatiku pun mula terasa sayu
Wajahmu selalu terbayang-bayang di fikiranku wahai sayang.
Tetapi ini semuanya memori yang akan ku simpan di dalam hati.
pabila ku keseorangan nanti, akan ku teringat sejarah kembali.

mengapa kau meninggalkan ku
apakah kesalahan ku
yang ku buat kepadamu sehingga begini akhirnya
sayangku..
kemana kau menghilangkan
diri sungguh payah untuk ku mencarimu
kembalilah kepadaku seperti waktu dahulu
kemana kau menghilangkan diri
sungguh payah untuk ku mencarimu
kembalilah kepadaku seperti waktu dahulu

Mengapa kau meninggalkanku?
Apakah kesalahan ku?
Yang ku buat sehingga begini akhirnya?

Mungkin kau tidak menyedari betapa ku sayang padamu.
Kau pergi dengan begitu dan meninggalkan ku untuk terus menanti.
Tahukah perit perasaan hati apabila kau lakukan sebegitu.
pada mulanya, kau pergi tanpa kata.
kemudian kau hadir dengan kata-kata yang memilukan.
Apakah diri ini harus terus menantikan kepulanganmu?

2009-05-25T18:48:00.003+08:00

Persahabatan sering menyuguhkan beberapa cobaan, tetapi
persahabatan sejati bisa mengatasi cobaan itu bahkan
bertumbuh bersama karenanya…

Persahabatan tidak terjalin secara otomatis tetapi
membutuhkan proses yang panjang seperti besi menajamkanbesi,
demikianlah sahabat menajamkan sahabatnya. Persahabatan
diwarnai dengan berbagai pengalaman suka dan duka, dihibur-disakiti,
diperhatikan-dikecewakan, didengar-diabaikan, dibantu-ditolak,
namun semua ini tidak pernah sengaja dilakukan
dengan tujuan kebencian.

Mempunyai satu sahabat sejati lebih berharga dari seribu teman yang mementingkan diri sendiri

“Dalam masa kejayaan, teman2 mengenal kita,
Dalam kesengsaraan, kita mengenal teman2 kita."

2009-05-23T12:35:00.002+08:00

The reason why i ignored you and stayed away from you
was because i know how much you miss her and miss hanging out with her.
Yes, you know her first before i do but somehow, i became closer with her.
&& i'm sorry if you think i took her away.

Therefore i'm giving you the opportunity to be close to her like the old days.
Right now, you're the odd one cos we're down to 5 no more 6.
&& i think at times you deserve it .
Right now, we've switched position.
I'm beginning to feel what you feel.
So, goo ahead and grab every opportunity you can get to be close to her.
Be on her good side and let me be the bad guy.

I can't deny that i'm sad but maybe you deserve it.
In fact, i don't think we're on good terms anymore.
Day by day , i know and i can sense that we're drifting apart.
Its a matter of time. That's all.
If at the end , you feel that you've got what you want, than i admit defeat.
Closeness an always change.

2009-05-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

Perasaan hati amat sukar untuk dikawal.
Ketika diingat semula, sudah berkali-kali diri ini dilamun cinta.
Pada suatu ketika dahulu, aku dilamun cinta dengan seorang jejaka yang telah menambat hati ini.
Amat skar untuk aku menerangkan perasaan hati ketika itu.
Bersamanya, perasaan aku berbunga bak bunga yang mekar di taman.
Saat-saat yang dilalui bersamanya amat bermakna buat diri ini.

3 tahun sudah berlalu. Namun diri ini masih tidak dapat melupakannya.
Kini dirinya bahagia dengan si dia.
Dia pergi meninggalkan tanpa sebab.
Dia berubah tanpa diingini. Namun, diri ini harus menerima kenyataan.
Melihat kemesraan mereka, diri ini sengsara.
Dengan pantas, dia telah melupakan segala janjinya padaku.
Pedih rasanya hati ini. Bertahun-tahun aku cuba untuk mengubati hati yang terluka itu.

Kini, setelah sekian lama mengubati hati, aku ditemukan dengan seseorang yang telah menambat hati ini.
Dia telah mengubati duka dan laraku.
Dialah pelita hidupku.
Namun, percintaan yang dijalin tidak kekal.
Ia berakhir dengan perasaan benci,sedih.
Saat dilafaz putus, hati ku yang telah pulih berkecai semula.
Perubahan dirinya menyeksa diriku.
Kata-katanya membunuhku.
namun, masih ada perasaan sayang untuk dirinya.

Ketika dia melafazkan cinta, hatiku berdebar.
Aku hampir terpedaya dengan kata-katamu.
Kini , sekali lagi aku mengubati hati yang terluka.

2009-05-17T18:21:00.000+08:00

Life has been tough.
I mean its never easy but it get harder
when we have to deal with sickness and emotion.
Frankly, i always get carried away with my emotion.
&& i'm very sentimental.
Friends is an important factor in my life.
I believe that among other, i value friendship more.

Sometimes i question myself what is the true meaning of friendship?
We're often blinded by their acts that's why we can never understand who they truly are.
It's sad as we say we're friends yet we don't know each other inside out.
Frankly, i think true friends can be found when you're older which means now.
I honestly believe that i've found a true friend.
She's been there for me all the time and she bear with me whenever i gave her attitude and
never once did she retaliate.
I guess it's a good thing that we're enrolled into the same class.
In fact, our friendship weren't a smooth ride.
It was a bumpy one.
With her , i can express myself and tell her almost everything.
I'm glad i found a friend in her.

There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters,
who never did, and who always will.

2009-05-16T09:23:00.000+08:00

I never thought that the one person that i trust and believe
could do something like that.
We can tell each other anything but why?!
I trusted you more than anything.
I believed you most of the time but this is what i get?!
I guess life is just an illusion and that non of this are real.
I'm so sorry but maybe things will get awkward between us.
I had to write in another blog as i don't want you to know how i feel.
I feel betrayed by you.

Of all people, i never expected this from you.
I felt closer with you than others but i was wrong.
Maybe i'm the bad guy. Maybe i wasn't such a good friend afterall.
i'm sorry.I'm really sorry.
I guess people change but i guess we changed drastically.
I'm really sorry but trust me, between us, there might be a gap.
Cos, the element have been put inside my head and i'll never forget.
Your actions shows alot.

I shouldve seen it coming
I shouldve read the signs
Anywhere… I guess its impossible to change things.

Should i regret for sharing with you almost everything..?
I'm such a fool.
I'm so gullible.
Initially, i didn't believe it but action speaks a thousand word.

goodbye.